Ups and Downs

Life is like an emotional roller coaster still. In the mornings, I feel jittery and nervous for the day. I can’t eat much lately. I’m just not hungry. Throughout the day, I keep busy and feel happy. But once night comes, I’m sad. I miss the way things used to be. I just want to be held and loved. I’m starting to think I don’t know what I want at all.

Happy Birthday to Me!

Today is my birthday, and I shall celebrate! I have no idea what is in store for this day. All I know is that I want to be happy and have fun. Let the festivities begin!

 

Not According to Plan

As I mentioned in a previous post, life hasn’t been all that happy for me lately. After almost five and a half years of dating, Chad and I have split. Although this comes as a shock to everyone, I think it’s for the best. We’re still friends, and we’re open to the thought of trying to get back together. We were just so very young when we started dating. Juniors in high school do not know exactly what they want forever. We’ve grown, we’ve changed, we’ve tried new things, we’ve just started to really find ourselves.

For me, I have to be 100 percent sure about things. I had many doubts in our relationship, and there were many things that weren’t quite right in my eyes. I was too controlling, and he had his problems. (I won’t mention them for his sake.) From now on, we’re both going to do what makes us happy. I’ve realized more of what I want from life, and I’m going after that. If we happen to date again, it will be totally different since we’re different people now. As for now, we’re still friends and we’re still close. We were best friends before we got together, and as of right now, we’re still best friends.

I’m just glad that we’re still friends. And I’m proud that we both graduated with honors. I graduated magna cum laude with a degree in Visual Journalism with a concentration in information design, and he graduated cum laude with a Zoology degree. We pushed each other to be our very best in college. I’m glad we got to have the time together that we did, and I hope that life will bring us both what we want. Here’s to new beginnings!

I Graduated!

Yesterday marked a very important day for me. I graduated magna cum laude from Kent State University with a Visual Journalism degree with a concentration in information design. The day was so much more exciting than I thought it would be (especially since I’ve been dealing with a lot of emotional stress this past week). 

(My parents and I after the ceremony.)(The yellow cords represent my magna cum laude status.)

Tonight’s Thoughts

Sometimes what’s easiest isn’t always the best solution.

Enough with the sad stuff. Here’s a cute baby to lighten up my blog.